Greetings Everyone!!

Hello my name is Bella!

Its so nice of you to stop by and visit with me. I have dedicated this blog as a personal journal, I have a lot I want to get off my chest! This is new to me, I’m learning as I go, I hope you enjoy and please don’t forget to follow me!!

“When a man is denied the right to live the life he believes in, he has no choice but to become an outlaw.”

― Nelson Mandela

My Story

Well, my story is so complicated and so full twists and turns I make myself dizzy. Well, I am learning as I go, sit back, I hope you enjoy the ride!!

I am 46 years old. Divorced, with three kids. Soon after the divorce I became very depressed. That led me into drug use. Actually, let me take a step back and address that. I had started using methamphetamine at 17 and I used for roughly six months. During my marriage and after having three kids I started taking prescription medication. I took a couple for depression and anxiety. Hydrocodone 10 mg. for a shoulder I hurt gardening. I was so sleepy from my medications and what my Doctor called attention deficiency, so I was then prescribed Adderall. Just to be clear, before I had to take street drugs I was legally prescribed the same drug. Its about perception, and doing what you have to, to make it.

So, I am divorced, 35 with no job, no experience besides an outdated resume in all things equestrian. I really cant say I am completely over everything, but I do like who I am, who I am becoming and I forgive and understand the 35 year old me that I was.

The mind is its own place, and in itself can make a Heav’n of Hell, a Hell of Heav’n.

John Milton


  1. Kudos on your progress Bella.

    Liked by 1 person

    1. Bella Rae says:

      Well thank you thank you!!

      Liked by 2 people

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